So its been slow going fitness wise for 2017, but I hope to slowly get better. I did do some pushups and sit ups last night , but I was too tired to do any running. I was going to go to a Mauy Thai class but I didn't have a car last night. I hope to go to boxing tonight though.

Today though, after my morning programming classes, I did go to the school gym. I did 20 minutes on the stationary bike at level l6 with a consistent 16.9 intensity. It felt really good on my legs. I really need to regain my leg strength and endurance.

I also did some shoulders and was really careful because my left shoulder is still in pain and in some positions I have a hard time lifting with that arm. I did do the shoulder press though and it felt fine.

I also did some chest , but not the press I did that machine where you grip the handles and push them out infront of you. My left shoulder had a hard time starting that motion.

Lastly, I did some shrugs with 65 pound weights. I didn't go nuts , as I'm trying to ease in, and I still have 4 hours of class, then I want to go to boxing, so its going to be a long day and I don't want to exhaust myself.

When I started this blog  I talked about how I recently ended a 4 year relationship and how it was a tough decision. Well it was , and there were many times I questioned my choice. not to mention I missed the young kid who thought I was his dad. That's one thing to consider when getting into a relationship with a woman who has kids. You could get along really well with them and things can work out and that's great, but on the other hand things can go south and then you pretty much have to leave the kids behind even though you developed a father /son , father/daughter relationship with them.

Women with kids though deserve to find love as well as anyone else and I wont be a person to say to avoid them at all cost, just be very careful when entering into a relationship like that. In my case, it didn't work out, and while there were times she was great, most of the time she wasn't.

I went out of my way for her and her kids all the time. I spent lots of time and money on them. Though my birthday last year? She didn't even mention it. It came and went and she said nothing. Then I was upset and asked her why she didn't say anything , she just said she forgot. No apology , no making up for it, nothing. The year before that , she at least acknowledged it, she didn't do anything for me for it.

She didn't have much money and for the time I knew her, she was jobless 3 of the 4 years. I'm the one who pushed her to fix her resume and go job hunting and so on. But I remember for Christmas I spent a good 1000 dollars on her and a few hundred on her kids. She bought me some 10 dollar beer taster glasses from Walmart....

Its not about spending money . but I would have preferred something with effort. Make me a nice dinner or something. That would have been great.

Anyway, recently I tried to see if we could work things out. I don't know why. But she ended up showing her selfish bitchy side right off the bat , accusing me of being lazy (ive worked since we met , and once I started school, my days were filled with school, work and homework....but she calls me lazy. She spends a lot of time in bed sleeping. I went over one time to take her and her kids out it was about 1 PM on a Saturday and she was in bed and so was everyone else......

Anyway, it just cemented my view that she blames everyone else for her problems. She always had to be right and her opinion was the only one that mattered and if you didn't have the same one she did then you're an idiot.

I know I would be miserable in life if I stayed in that relationship, or if I try to go back to it. We are too different, and I'm too easy going and love not being serious and just having fun, to have to watch what I say or do every second of the day.

I like lots of things. I like video games, I like comics, I like going to martial arts classes, and going out with friends, and watching movies. If I spent more than 10 minutes on a video game shed flip out. If I wanted to visit a friend, she wanted to come, even if it was just me and another friend having some guy time. I don't want to keep going on and I definitely don't want to trash talk her. The point is , don't stay in a relationship that makes you feel trapped, unhappy or even depressed. Its not worth it. There are many people out there who you will click with and get along with on many levels , who will make you feel good about yourself. Stick to those people and don't settle for less.

I'm less than 4 months from finishing my college course, and I feel like I'm that close to starting a new life for myself. I'm very excited to see what the future holds especially now that I feel like I'm starting fresh.